Facebook is great. And Facebook is horrible.
If you’re on it, you probably know what I mean. It can make you so happy one minute, and make you feel worthless and unloved the next. I’ve had a love/hate relationship with FB for years. I’ve tried various ways to either make it more useful to me or reduce the time I spent on it, none of which worked out.
I was never one of those people who “friended” hundreds of people; I only friended my family and people I really knew and wanted to be in touch with. That only added up to 35 people, a seemingly manageable number, right? But even with such a small list of people, I was often disturbed or upset by things that appeared on my newsfeed. I found myself often thinking, “What is wrong with him (or her)?” or “I really didn’t need to know that about you.”
Nevertheless, I tried to hold up my end of the deal, always keeping up with posts by my friends and family, either commenting or “liking” their comments, as my way of letting them know I was paying attention to them. But when I saw my own posts ignored at least half the time, it hurt my feelings and made me feel like I wasn’t important to anyone. And that really made me feel pathetic. I hate feeling pathetic.
Today I decided I’ve just had enough. I deactivated my account. My family and friends will just have to call or email me if they want to talk. The one thing I’ll really miss is being able to participate in the Birding Ohio group though. And getting news from some of my favorite conservation organizations and charities. But FB never really deletes your account, so I could always reactivate it again if I really really can’t live without it. But I’m going to try HARD not to get pulled back into that stupid time-sucking site. And at least for now I feel liberated. It’s about time I focused on my own life anyway!